looking back
on a life gone wrong
I felt the need to write this song
leaning against a padded wall
my head is spinning but I will gain control
the things I did are all a blur
some faces are clear the rest has faded
like a childs rhyme in your head
faces in the wall telling me I'm dead
out of my head losing my mind
fairground music playing all the time
people were killed I guess I'm damned
it makes me laugh tell me whats the crime?
my mind they say has been occupied
by a deadly poison that won't subside
with no sense of right of wrong
I'll stay locked up till me days are done
everyday I sink further down
allways smiling like an evil clown
I test the nurses empathy
how do they deal with someone like me
there will be a day when I am out of here
tell the nurse I'm sorry dear
do you really think I'd lie to you?
steal your heart if you want me to
trapped in this body and this cell
no way out from this living hell
an overdose is the only way
that I can leave with the final say